Tag: motherhood

Keep Moving On

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The first two weeks of January find me working on a long list of goals, as well as challenges. The goals are much more fun despite being demanding of so much of my time and attention. I will share a few snippets of what is going on.

My son and I decided to co-author a children’s book over the past month. We want to publish it before Valentine’s Day in hopes of reaching an audience that will enjoy reading and experiencing the details of the adventure that we have written together. My son is an amazingly talented and magical artist and also happens to be an excellent illustrator. He has been drawing cartoons for me since he was about ten years old and I have tons of scrap books loaded with samples of the characters animals and scenes that he has depicted on different sizes of papers for a myriad of occasions over the years.

Lucky for me, he has finally agreed to pen them into a little book to accompany a story about the power of love and friendship amongst a family of fish and their humans as they interact with one another in the most unlikely of stressful circumstances. Love is their guide within a dark sea of utter despair and the light that emerges from the depth of that abyss will warm the readers heart and teach both kids and adults about the true power that love and compassion can have as we travel through our lives.

We think that it will be a wonderful Valentine’s Day story and gift to share with Loved Ones! The clock keeps on ticking and we are running low on time and are truly loving the challenge of racing toward the finish line. I have so enjoyed spending this time with my son and learning so much from and about him. His wit and sense of humor has literally had me laughing so hard that salty tears would not quit streaming down my face when we were editing one another’s writing. His ability to describe our fish characters adventures with such finesse, emotion and humor is simply astounding to me. When I asked him where he learned how to do this, his response was, “duh look in the mirror Mama, I’ve had the best teacher there is. You’re an amazing writer and the funniest person I’ve ever met in my life so to answer your question…. duhh”. I didn’t know what to say after that so I gently touch his bearded cheek and mustered up the warmest smile that my heart will allow. He has far more confidence in me then I do in myself, that’s a fact. I love to make my son laugh, always have, even when cancer moved in and tried to take over our lives. But I never thought of myself as a funny person or a good writer. Well if he thinks that I’m all those things, perhaps it’s true, at least in part.

As many of my readers already know, my son and I have also been working on a book or should I say a long novel based on the true story of his life threatening battle with cancer. He calls it “our battle” with cancer so I try to respect his wishes and view it in the same light. As he always reminds me, “If you were not in the same room with me, I would have pulled those IV’s out of my body and either run for the hills or jumped straight out the window of the cancer prison and that’s a fact. You were the one that made me stand up to Cancer and fight back with oil brushes and paints as my weapons. You taught me to believe that Love, eating your food and my Art could slay the cancer beast and so far it’s all true Mama.” Ok Josh, you win. Time for a deep breath and the need to use either my sleeve or some soft tissues to wipe away the salty memories of the most painful moments that life could present to any mother or her young child. Our novel will come out in sequels once we are lucky enough to secure the right publisher. We also dream about the day when the right film producer and director will read our manuscript and become passionate about turning our story into a memorable movie for the big screen to enjoy. We keep telling ourselves to believe in all of our dreams so that they will turn into a reality when the opportunity arrives. We are both very hopeful that this dream will come true very soon because as we well know, life is short.

Way too short. We learned it the hard way and that realization is embedded into each of our souls. So the “challenges” that I was referring to on this first month of the new year, have to do with my own health and I opted to make a clear list of all of them because I fully intend to line them up, one next to the other in a straight line and execute them one by one, till I murder every last one of them. The details are not urgent at this point. Only the fact that I intend to slay them all! I will share about them in future blog posts with the intention of helping even one person who might find themselves overwhelmed by health challenges of whatever sort in life. So I have several positive goals and a number of difficult challenges that I am hoping to conquer one by one. Takes a lot of motivation and inner strength to take on such a huge physical challenge. What has helped me a ton is my decision to return to the gym on a daily basis despite all of my limitations due to arthritis. In the past month i have improved so much it’s truly mind boggling in my condition. I could barely peddle 1/4 of a mile on the stationary bike due to hip dysplasia. The pain and stiffness were ridiculous. I also had surgery on my big toe,( long story) so I lost a couple of days in the middle of the month but I am finally getting better. Today, I rode 3.5 miles in thirty minutes. I used to ride two miles in 40 minutes but daily persistence has changed all that.

My stiffness is improving a ton, yet it’s still hard to bend all the way to the floor. Give me some time, I will get there too. I share all this with you today in the hopes of encouraging and inspiring those of you who are struggling in life to cope with physical and even emotional adversities.. You can do it! I know you can! You can choose to believe in your own power to overcome starting right now! Please love yourself enough to believe in your ability to overcome your pain. I believe in you.. It’s the only way out of your darkness.. Come on.. Stand up and put one foot in front of the other.. You can do it! It’s tough I get that, but it’s what you need to do.. Please feel free to leave me a note in the comment section and tell me about what you are doing to overcome your own adversity and live in the light of life..

Welcome to the Blog

Please join me in taking a collective deep breath as I launch my brand new blog. I prefer to think of it as our new blog because my intention is to involve you in it as much as possible. It was a few days ago on the eve of my sons 22nd birthday when I finally realized that I’m ready to jump in and share this blog with all of you. I think it’s the best best way for you to get to know me on an intimate level and understand a little bit about who I am and what I have to offer.

He is the most important person in my life, past present and future. He is my dearest and best friend. The love of my life. My reason for living and breathing. I respect and admire him more than anyone in this world. He has given purpose and meaning to my life and it has been an honor and a privilege to call him my son. Cancer tried to take him away from me five years ago but I was not gonna allow that to happen. So I fought like hell to get him the best possible treatment to try and save his life. We changed our diet, the water we drank, improved the quality of our positive thinking, and prayed every night that we would be lucky enough to conquer the beast. And thank God, thus far we have won our war on cancer. May it continue to remain drowned in the deepest darkest waters of the ocean along with the myriad of stones we used to throw from any shoreline we could find between his chemotherapy treatments.
I find myself feeling a bit anxious, nostalgic and grateful tonight. Anxious because of all of the challenges and hurdles that keep insisting to crowd each of our paths in life five years later. From health to financial hurdles, the hits just keep on coming. And every time I feel that I just can’t take another step forward, I will look over at my beloved son and notice a sheepish grin across that face of his which accentuates the gorgeous dimple that I have adored on him since he was a little boy. I then pause to fixate on it for a brief moment and take a deep breath. It feels like a sudden shot of adrenaline rushing through my veins that gives me the energy and the courage I need to keep moving and Holding On to life. My hope for him is to live a long and healthy life filled with adventure, fun and prosperity doing whatever makes him happy. I can only be here to support him in whatever way I can and pray that all his dreams come true..
Cancer did not beat us to a pulp like it wanted to, but it reeked a kind of havoc within each of us, that has taken several years of blood sweat and tears to unravel. I live every day in gratitude that he is still alive. And it is precisely that gratitude that fuels my courage to find my way through the myriad of challenges that face me each and every day.

It is my intention to continue sharing some important pieces of my own personal life here with you and that of other people that I have and will interview for the purpose of presenting you with valuable insight into how we all walk our talk and continue to heal ourselves by working on our own relationship with the food we choose to eat. So all I can say is buckle your seatbelt and get comfy in your seat. Get ready for an adventure like no other you’ve been on before! See you soon💕 Always with Love… Vida

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